All I want right now... =)

Hey Bloggers!
What's up? It's late, I know
but I was online chatting with a friend
and I found my dream car, and she told me
she wanted her dream (including car, house, bedroom,
MAN!!!, kids...) and I told her the few things that I want:

Yeah, that's all I want right now ... Just a few/little things. The Barbie Beetle it's the most beautiful car I've ever seen, it's magenta and has the B almost everywhere. It's close to the doll car, but for a Princess like M3! Then my BMW X5. It's perfect to be the daily car, or to hang out with all my girls (we are 7!) or to go on a road trip or go to another city or to the beach and to go to work when I'm older also ideal for my girls. Then comes my Beach Mansion. My inspiration, like LC's house @ Laguna Beach but I would like to include big beautiful and green gardens around a White house, with outdoor spaceS! But have to be facing the beach and with the most elegant furniture ever. My city house could be a pent house @ a nice tower. Modern and contemporanous. With tons of electronic things that can simplify my life and that decoration maybe my mom could do it, she's a wonderful house decorer. My Bedrooms, I just need to go shopping to PBTeens and it's ready! Tons of pink, and a nice high place, also a mini lounge. It would be the perfect room for a PRINCESS! My Dream Man... Hmmm. Blonde, with blue eyes, totally HOT and with a nice work out and really tall. His personality, first of all an intelligent gentlemen, who loves me and charming. A Prince Charming! That's all I can say. And maybe in 20 years my gorgeous, wonderful and lovable blonde twins (girls!) one with blue eyes that would be Mia (maybe another name) and Natalia (Tali) with green eyes like her mom. I'm not asking too much. Just a few millions dollars and a handsome man who's totally into me and viceversa and in 20 years with tecnologic and money I'll make sure my girls have all I want.

Just like a Princess, never stop day-dreaming. Even if you dream with rarely possible things!

Princess M3

PS: This is kidding! =P

What's going on ...

Hi bloggers!
How's Summer so far?
Let's just say: Goodbye Homework, Hello
Summer!!!. Anyways, I know I just come here
when I have no choice, but I have no choice right now,
there are more important things going on... So, here it goes.

What's going on around me? Why I'm not telling this to my friends? Good question! Well, some times even if it's hard to say, you have to forget about yourself, be the last one and focus on the others. Yup! For example, one of my friends lost her grandpa and she needs us to cheer her up and be there; other one has a huuuge boy problem, 4 guys in her mind/heart including her boyfriend (and she's not a slut or a bitch); other one, is trying to get back with her boyfriend, they were a beautiful couple and got along really good, but he's in another country and uff! too much to write; and finally my best friend, she's inlove and back with my cousin (Maybe I'll talk about that later) ... So that's why I'm here and not with them...

The weirdest thing happened to me this week. My class is starting to meet and work things about our Senior Year, so we're meeting at different houses. So far we only had 2 meetings, the point is where? At the place where was our first pool party and so I spent my first night with my ex and the second one @ my friend's place where we kissed for the first time. OHMYGOSH! It was awful, to be there and remember those moments... It's not that I want him back or anything like that, it's just that we were there together as a couple and now, nothing! It's done and not in good terms. Also he moved on, I'm really glad, but I don't want to be standing there watching how he flirts with his new girl, no thanks! I moved on too, but I don't have a couple yet and it's weird to see him with one so fast. Like Hilary Duff said: It hurts! But the world doesn't go around me, and "People change, things go wrong but always remember, life goes on".

A funny thing. Today 4 of my friends and I were @ the movies with a male friend, and he invite us: paid the tickets and the snack! We watched Pirates 3, not the ending I wanted but it's a great movie after all. I love that kind of stories: pirates, ladies, sea, mysterie, love, death, beyond ... I don't know, it's like part of belongs to that kind of stuff, to that world. Also it was really funny when we went to the bookshoop to eat Brownie á la mode and I started to chose books to one of my friends. She had a pile of books and we were laughing out loud to that, like in the movies. Those are the kind of things that are silly but makes our hang out, truly ours.

And finally about LOVE. A four letters word that had been floating in my head lately. What would feel like to be inlove?! I don't know, but there's a time in your life when you want to be with someone, share your things. Have someone to tell you how pretty you are, that tells you how much he values you, sends you flowers for no reason or a box a chocolates. Takes you out, spends some quality time with you, takes you seriously, makes you feel special and save ... Maybe when we think it's the right time, it's the wrong one. We never get what we want / we always want what we can't have. But for some reason I suspect that not falling inlove is the best thing that could happen to me, because I tend to rely in those who can protect me or expect to much about them, and I'm starting to learn that I need to be independent, mature, and reach "self-actualization" to value someone special on my side. So maybe I just need to keep my mind busy and let the world goes on, when time comes I will fall inlove, hace someone and live the most romantic story that I've ever dreamed about...

Just like a Princess accept what life brings and be happy with that and when you find a mountain in your way, and you tried everything but nothing worked and it's worth it, why not make a subway?

Princess M3

(#) Sunny days are here again (#)

It's call karma ...

Hi bloggers!
It's been so long since
my last Entry that I'm not
going to write about what I
was writing in my last one ... So here I go

It's called karma. What a name for an entry, but that's how I'm living my life, at least my love life. I don't even know how to start, but right now I just can say that (8) It's just too little too late, a little too wrong (8) and that's just for MYSELF. That's right, I screwed up...

One day I flashed with a guy from my class, maybe he isn't the best one but for sure the best one that had been in my life. He was there when I was into a huge fight with my Best Friend, he treated me like a Princess, he pull down every wall I put up and made me a real Princess... He was a great boyfriend but there were things that weren't going well. Like for example, my family didn't know anything and I wasn't brave enough to tell them or like our friends didn't get along really good. We are really different, are families are. I am kind of a "good girl" but only child and live with my grandma and he's like, he's really cute, but kind of "bad boy" and a I know my family wouldn't agree with our relationship... I know those aren't good reasons, but I was afraid and all the pressure made me take a decition. Maybe it was a huge mistake, maybe it was a long term benefit ... I don't know

The point is, we broke up more than a month ago and two weeks later I had a HUUUGE problem @ school with a ""friend"" and he was there with me because I ended uo crying like crazy in the middle of my school... That was during the science fair, those two days were really fun because we were together but weren't dating or anything. Then he wanted to know if we were going back but I wasn't ready... He was mad because I was saying one thing, and doing another; maybe that's because I didn't know what to do.. But that isn't the point either...

I don't even know what I'm writing. Anyways, today we had Math test (the last of the month, thanks God!) and he went and hug one of his "friends" the way he used to do with me. And yes, I got jealous! Why does he has to flirt with her right in front of me?! And treat her the way he treated ME?! Oh God. I can't believe it, ME. JEALOUS! Agh. If I wasn't ready to be in love, why I get jealous?! I'm mad at myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then, when I got really bad was when I went to Music. He was singing with the guitar with a group. In the half of my class isn't any of my close girl friends, just my male best friend. He was playing ball (yeah, that class is a play ground) The thing is that I was really uncofortable just being there and suddendly he started to sing our song. For You I will (Confidence) - from Teddy Geiger. I wanted to die. Really. It was the most awkward moment of my life ... I got so bad. I'm still in shock.

But I have to be responsible for my acts ... and face the things that I do. That's what he also used to say.

Anyways, I lost him forever ... I just wish that he finds a really nice girl that makes him extremely happy.

I'm going crazy ... but I will be alright

Princess M3

The whole thing didn't end up there ... it got worst. But first let me explain why my enty's "It's call karma..." A year ago a friend of mine asked me if I believe in karma en I said no. Now Im starting to believe it exists. Why?! Besides a HUUUUGE Problem I have @ school, in the love life I'm living the karma thing. At summer I had a thing with a guy, then when we broke up he wanted to stay in contact (luckily he lives in another city, far away) but I didn't want. He wasn't really good for me, and I was confussed because I had feelings for him and he had feelings for me, and wanted me back any ways. One day, finally, he got into a big fight by MSN so we never knew from each other again. Now I wish I would stay in contact with him, because he was the first and anyways, an important part of me. But how karma relates to this? I have feelings for my ex-boyfriend and he has feelings for me, at least that was what I thought. And I know I like to play games, and get confussed fast. Also I know I'm childish and run aways at smallest problem... But that's the way I am (for that I have and answer) So, the karma thing is that I wanted to stay in contact because I really like him, but he doesn't want so that's the way I am paying what I did once.

About the way I am, sometimes we ask for what we think it's the best and it's just the worst, or say one thing because we want another and are afraid, or maybe we want to stop hurting people around us, or are afraid, or I don't. So for this my tip for all the guys and princes of this world is to read between lines, but more important fight for who you really love even if the princess keeps runing ... And if she's not ready to a serious relationship, be the closest friend she can ever has, so that the way she would know how much you appreciate her ...

I did a even worst thing, I talked to him and that was a total disaster ... Why!? I started telling him a bunch of stupid things and I know the world doesn't go around me. And I said I was sorry. It went extremely BAD until I opened my heart and told him some things, he laughed and sign out. I was shocked. I couldn't believe it. I can't believe it!!! Anyways I dedicate this song to me Too Little, Too Late from Jojo (8) You know it's just too little too late (8) Yeah, that's too. I lost him forever. Maybe the guy who would love me the most, and would ever ... But it's done, and I can't do anything. I just can say: Sorry (8) I dind't mean for you to get hurt (8) I'm really sorry, if just you could read this and know that i really like you ... but a song says (8) I can't keep something that I never had (8)

(8) It's just too little too late, a little too wrong - And it's time to face the truth... I'll never be with you (8)

Just like a Princess ... Believe in fairies, miracles and happy endings. Because even now I STILL BELIEVE!*

Princess M3

A view of the 2006

 Like a year from now I was totally into this blog thing, but 6 months ago I left my city and went to a Camp (for work) and it changed my life ... also I stoped writing in my blog and stuff!

Hi bloggers!
Months later I'm back
a new and improved Princess M3!

Oops! I almost forgot ... Happy Holidays! ♫
And Happy New Year!!! I wish U the best from
the bottom of my heart ♥ I wish U a Memorable* 2007!

Oh! And make yourself comfortable because I'm going to write more than 6 months of my life!

... as I was writing, in my last entry I was full of things to do. I was in a thousand and one things. But also I wasn't having a great time. Things weren't exactly going good or anything. But that's from the past; so now let's remember those days and write about them.

Since in my last entry I was finishing school, the test period was really close so my entrance 2 Nerd Jail jiji. {Yeah, as I wrote in my firsts entries Princess also have 2 study}But that's history. Anyways, I succeed my exams and finally school ended for God's sake. With very good grades I finished it. The last day, as always we were doing something to say good bye to the last day. One of my friends from Junior High was moving to New York, and in the mall next to our school she was @ the Beauty Parlor and we took some pictures there and had a nice time, said good bye to her and left. My Best Friend and I were @ my house, and it also was one of my aunts bday and we baked cookies. That was the very first time I went to the kitchen and really cook something. They were delicious! Vainilla cookies and chocolate chip cookies. Mmmmm, yummie!

Summer begun! A special summer was comming: I was going to work in a summer camp 5 hours from home and my best friend as going to a camp in France. A weird summer: yes!, a special summer: maybe, a memorable summer: for sure and a DIFFERENT summer: tottaly! I have to admit it, althought it was weird and everything it IS a MEMORABLE summer and it really changed my life. I will never forget it. One of the most amizing summer of my life: camp, adventure, love, friends and family. But I'm going to write the story from the begining ...

It was summer, and I was packing all my stuff (like 3 suitcases and a bunch of clothes and stuff), preparing my laptop and doing all the things to go. It was my last week @ the city before the camp. On Tuesday I went to the workshop, it was the last session. I arrived on time, but psyco wasn't there and I wasn't alone. One of the guys that I barely talk was there and a girl that I knew since I was later came later. We were there talking a bunch of stuff, mainly the guy and me. When we were talking I realized how naive I was, I was like a little girl living on a teen body, or something like 15 going on 5... Anyways, I was having a rough time because nobody in my family wanted that I went to the camp so the psyco told me to measure the reasons of going and not going to the camp. It was a really difficult decision: I wanted to be independent and responsible, and grow up for a while but also my family was worry because I'm too young and not ready to be for so long far from home ... A thousand and one reasons ... Anyways, my last night @ home my father called me and we fought, we was having a surgery that morning and I wasn't going to be in town for this. I decided not go crying. Mom told me to go, I finished packing and that morning I went to camp.

A really loooong trip, more than the 5 hours. Finally there, @ the Ranch. A place that I like, a place that I knew, Im place that I enjoyed. It's one of the most pretty places in my world: with rainy afternoons and nights, huge green lands, horses, a pool ... At a simply seen it was the same place I left 2 years ago. Wrong! Nothing was ready to start the summer camp on Monday, everything was dirty, nothing was set ... millions of things to do before Monday, and just one day and a morning lefts. But things changed on Sunday, the main teacher arrived with her son who was working as monitor too. My mother didn't like how was looking the place, but some things weren't right so she decided to leave. I was there, everything was a chaos, nothing seem to be like it was and I was really working. Making posters, putting the rules every where, identifying the places, put here there ... and all that.

The first week it was the worst. I was comfortable with the new sistem. Too much for me, I'm more a city girl than a country girl, but I was there and I had to work. My first group was the most special for me: four cute girls and three adventurous boys. The girls were like me into fashion and delicate, also very funny and made our night incredible; the boys were always ready for everything, especially adventure. And sure we had much adventure: walks in the mounts, camp night at the hill, horse riding, pool time, sports ... a bunch of activities. Also there was my cousin (yes-but-no), in the oldest group. We share and awesome summer and share lots of things and experiences. One of my cousins from the capital was there, she is like a terrible girl who is always fighting and at first we didn't know how to handle the situation but at the end of the summer we became sisters! We shared bed, clothes, were in the same group; she's a lovely girl with amizing skills, but with a hard temper. Also I met a cute eleven year old girl who said to be my daughter; she always made me feel love and made me laugh a lot in a place where I didn't fit really well. And the girls of the room 1 the second week: soooo much fun with u girls! Also with the oldest girl I didn't have a good relation the first week, and made me some traps too, but it made my week more memorable and helped me to learn more.

As I said, at first that wasn't like MY place, with so many activities and "dirty" stuff I wasn't managing it really well, but the time pass and make things right. I get use to the rate of the camp, and all that. Every week new kids, having to share a bedroom and a bathroom, being responsible of a group of kids (7 or 11 kids), doing some sports and activities I wasn't use to. Also I have coexist in the girls house with more girls (8 - 14 year old) and also the boys.

On the second weekend I got a really bad cold. With 5 days of fever and everything. That Wednesday I had to come home and go the hospital. The injected me, because I couldn't breath well and put me in a serious treatment, with lots of medicines that made me sleep a lot, even one with a drug, and put me some conditions to go back to the camp: NO WATER! No pool, no river, no rain, nothing wet, no camping. I only kept this for a week more or so, because once I had to take care of the kids on the pool and my jean got all wet, and the fourth week I camped again. I love to camp =)

With time, I learned to have a good relationship with the other teachers and to deal with some things of my temper that I changed ... I learned so much in this summer. I don't know how to express all of this. I worked on my personality and myself, with one of the greatest persons I've ever met; I had a summer affair there; I found incredible friends there; I grew and became a more mature person ... so so much things. I will try to write them clear. Let me start.

First with myself.
One day I was at the side of the pool and one of the teachers came. We started to talk and then some other day talked again ... when I realized we were so alike that we became pretty good friends with a wonderful friendship. She was my psyco, my confident, my friend, my support ... Oh My Gosh! She is too much to describe. All I can say is that she guided me into the right way to the change I needed. Also one of "my guy" friends made a huge difference in me. J and R: I'm so thanked with u guys, u made me realize how wrong I was about so much things, u heard me when I needed, u made me talk, u made me change! THANKS! I love u lots. Since this change, I'm more social and mature. Now I'm more open to people, to things, I take more chances and let things change me.

The campers and the people there.
I met tons of incredible people there. Teachers, campers, maids. Everyone there is special for me. We were like a big family that lived there for weeks. Teachers that teach me some experiences unforgettable, that gave me life lessons, that shared their time with me, that made me feel grown up; teachers of life! Like the every night stories that my group teacher told me before sleeping, or how much I had to help her after her accident (she felt form a horse), or the conversations with her husband (that as a matter of fact are the parents of my summer guy) about his life in the past (with amazing trips to every where, or his adventures in Venezuela), or how much our doctor made me laugh with her cubain accent and her expressions and phrases or her collection of books about the camp! The maids, oh my those maids who knew everything and were always by my side; they cooked us our food, delicious!, cleaned up our messes, and made me drink the tea for my cold; and how can I forget about all the information they brought me. And finally the campers: each of them with a story, like a little boy of my group that was terrible but this was his way of crying for help and attention; or the last summer girl of my guy, who was just like me but with thousands of problems that I don't have; those foreing kids that only spoke english at first but then spoke spanish too. Everyone of them had a story, a lesson for you and shared a summer with me.

My summer affair.

Im a little tired from now ... but I will write all about the 2006 ;) LATER!

Summary of the past days

Hi everyone!
Sorry for not writing
sooner, I know 12 days,
a lot ... but can I say?! So
much to do, So little time ...

Those days I had had a looot of things to do and also I've been so tired to write down what was going on that I completely forgot about the blog like an option 2 distract myself, but whenever I was inspired something here happened and I got distracted. Finally I make a space and decide 2 write here, I was going crazy without it. 12 days!!! That's a lifetime. You might be thinking "Oh Gosh how Drama Queen she is!", seriously my life changes like every hour and I'm not kidding. And I have 2 write down each important day or I willl almost forget it, I have short mind 2 remember things. So enough bla bla bla and here's a summary of those days ...

• Saturday @ Volare

Saturday after Science Fair I went 2 the capital w/ my cousins and my aunt. We were drving back home my grandmother. But the part that I didn't know was that we were also going 2 a funfair. An amusement park for kids there that's incredibly fun. First I was like "OhmyGosh, I'm not dress for this", I was wearing my casual-fashion look. Then, when I forgot about it, I had such a nice day w/ my little cousins. The big one, who is 6, and I proved every and each game and whith the little one, who is 3, we turn because she is little for some games. Really, I had one of the greatest days in my whole life. I love it. Thanks to my little girls: you know how much I love you. That afternoon I felt alive again, back in myself like the little girl that I am.

Actually yesterday I was reading in my book of Soul Searching that sometimes we start lo live in a monotonous mode and so inmerse in our routine that we lost the most important of life: LIVE. Live like we want, enjoy everything we do and love our lifes.

• English classes with my aunts

Last week I started my English classes, just w/ the teacher that I like the most. I have 2 admit it: I'm having a blast. I practice my english (because though in my country we speack Spanish, I'm bilingual), spend time w/ my aunts and have so much fun in the classes. I thought it was going 2 be stressful 4 me 2 have classes again in the afternoons, this is like a break time that I have of homeworks, computer, also TV. At this time I watched a soap opera, but I don't really mind missing it.

In the book of Soul Searching, I was completely in shock when I read how much time we spend watching TV. A normal person or teenage spend 1,642 hours of TV each year, and between the ages of 13 and 63 (50 years) we could watching over 82,000 hours!!! Think about all of this days when you think you have nothing 2 do and start watching a program, then another one ... and many times you end watching something you shouldn't or adjust your live 2 watch a certain program. Also TV is a sales method, that is used 2 sell us each trend. I know I have problems w/ the computer, let's say, but I'm trying 2 use this time 2 do interesting and productive things.

• Last week's session @ the workshop

I wasn't going 2 the worshop because of my surgery but last week I finally got back. We had a very interesting and productive session. We start talking about politics and the needs of our city: were I totally rock! Even they said it. Yeah, I love politics and all these stuff, but here in my country this is a chaos. The we faced abandon feeling of a girl that her mom once leave the country and now that she came back they had a dicussion and she threaten 2 go again, which made her feel guilty of that words and remember the abandon feelings she once had. Also I had 2 advise her our divorced-parents-children politic: we are not their messenger, if they want 2 say something 2 each other they have 2 talk. I can't believe I'm getting over this, it's so cool. What can I say about those sessions?! I totally missed them and I enjoy each second we spend there.

• Paper war and Concert hour

On Thursday @ school we had a Paper war, throwing paper to a classmate that was suposse 2 be some teacher that we had any tipe of problems during the year. The Paper war was suposse 2 eliminate this feelings for this teacher. But let's face it, we had a major blast doing this. All the front of the class was full of paper balls. I want 2 do it again! So much fun for a second period class. Then in the same class we organized a RB2 (like is our name now) Live in Concert recital. That was also a major blast, and even I was singing. We sang like 3 or 4 songs in great time and have fun. So sad that the official launch is in the class trip ... I would loved 2 be there and have an even bigger blast w/ them.

• I still have laptop

Daddy's back and didn't ask about the laptop, just one day, so I still have it. Great, huh?! Even if I didn't use it during the week now I'm writing here, in the laptop. The mainpoint here is that daddy's back. It was cool see him after some days, I missed him, even if most of the times I want to kill him. Also he brought me everything I wanted: my "My brain is on vacation" t-shirt, my "I didn't ask to be a Princess" t-shirt, my Punk Princess Pink bracelet (and a gray one too) and the most cool, my oversized white sun glasses, they have an 80's look but I matched them w/ the perfect accesories and they look awesome.

• Easter week again!

This rocks! I have Easter vacations again, LOL. Not seriously, this week we had national elections and my school is a vote place so the last day we classes was on Friday and we are coming back tomorrow. 9th, 10th and 11th grade aren't having classes this Friday either, class trip. 12th is going 2 their 3 or 4 days class trip. And I'm not going 2 my class trip (the reason?  I don't feel part of the the goup and I'm not sure I want to be part of it), instead I would study 4 our final tests that starts on June 1st & have and appointment 2 check my eyes, my glasses doesn't fit me well anymore. (Whoops! Before you start thinking: I am NOT a nerd, geek or dork ... I use fashion glasses from time 2 time).

• Floricienta's Concert

Definitely a MAJOR, MAJOR blast. One of the best concert's in my life. We danced, we sang, we screamed like crazy, jumped upside and down ... I don't have words 2 describe that night. But the most important thing isn't the concert, well yeah it is but, I aslo met my cyber best friend there, another good friend and 2 cyber friends too. W/ my cyber best friend and our good friend I had a so much fun time talking and goofing around, even a mag took us a picture. Of course, 3 divas like we are!!! Then w/ the other 2 crazy girls, they are completely crazy: they weren't in my zone and when we met and they asked where I was they said they were going 2 be there w/ me. Yeah, they got some how there. We also have so much fun and even made a photographer guy took us a picture. Girlz: I had so much fun, a major major blast there; let's go together 2 another concert but all of us in the same zone please! Also I was w/ my best friend's little sister, that is also my sister, and we had a great time together. My girl: you know how much I love you and a great time w/ you; whenever you want 2 hang out, just call me! And last but never least, we saw so many cute-hot guys: Oh my Gosh, w/ blond hair, well shaped body and light eyes. Oh my Gosh!!!

Now I have 2 go 2 face my reality: I have 2 study 4 2 tests tomorrow: a Math one, that I even know where to put my name on it and French, the worst language they could chose. Wish me so much luck, I'm really needing it ... I was almost forgeting: I have 2 complete a Biology exercise too. School, school, school ... I hate you so much!!!

Talk To Ya' Later,

Princess M3